Please pray for me. I've been having horrible fits of crying and extreme anxiety. The anxiety is so severe I feel I might die. I can't even complete a sentence without breaking down like it turns to crying. With the anxiety I wake up that way sometimes and sometimes it just hits me and I'm gasping for air and even in public saying somebody help me I can't breathe I can't breathe I can't breathe I can't breathe anymore. Im doing it right now. And crying. Too many things are happening my breast cancer diagnosis my husband being on hospice my oldest son having his heart and stroke symptoms again. It's too many things it's too many things it's just too too many things. I'm scared. I've lost all face and I mean all I have absolutely no faith right now and haven't for a long time. It feels like having faith at this point is a mental illness or delusion. I'm spiritually sick. Physically sick. Emotionally sick. I feel in every way hopeless and helpless. No competence and a million responsibilities I could manage I had FAITH and there were miracles daily. I can only see failure and sickness now. I'm worthless. I'm a horrible horrible sinner who has done so many wrongs over the years. What if I were to be held accountable. I should be thrown into hell. I've been a bad wife at times. I've been a thief. I've embarrassed my children. I don't deserve to live and I can't bear this anxiety and complete ABSENCE of FAITH like I've never felt before.