Please pray for me to have the strength to endure the extreme arthritis pain and the mental toll my husband's health is taking. He yells out several repetitive words, phrases, and sounds over 50 times a day. His dementia is getting worse and my ability to function and remain sane through it all is failing. Please pray for some positive improvements and that I can stop being so intensely affected by it. I'm at the end of my endurance. I've even wanted to kill myself because he's too much. He is severely diabetic and will not stop eating probably 7500 calories a day. He seems driven to eat by some unseen force. It's like watching a zombie movie where he stares blankly and seeks the most unhealthy things to consume. It's like a "the lights are on... but nobody's there" demeanor. I need the strength to figure out a way through all of this. I feel FROZEN, mentally and physically. I can't function at all. I reached a point of hopelessness and I basically shut down almost catatonic months ago.