Please pray for us. I'm not holding together very well. I've been faking and faking through all of the hurt. Crying inside for what I don't have instead of being grateful. I'm a piece of worthless garbage and everybody hates me. I wish I could be less emotional lately. Please pray I can get unstuck. Please pray for my sons and daughter and their families. This year has been awful. Every tradition and celebration has been falling away. It all seems hopeless. I'm a terrible person I guess. My presence helps no one but my death would hurt many. Such a trap. There's no joy or hope. Silently slipping into madness. Then raging outbursts that hurt feelings. Please help me, Jesus. My soul is broken and I don't see any light.