Dear Heavenly Father so sorry my mind is all over the place since I am always stressed out with family. I love my family but they are not the healthiest to be around. It seems like I'm the one they don't like. I don't know. I understand my sister Helen has depression and anxiety. I just want her happy. I want her to find a husband. I want her to love herself. I understand with all my health issues going through therapy I have my good and bad days. I'm very grateful Father that you said it was not time to go in life when my strokes happened. Other than loving John I don't know why else I'm here. I love my family but there has to be some mental health issues. I don't know. Talking about all this makes me miss my mom dearly. She was so loving and I get sad because how she was treated when she was I'll was not right. I did my best at 9 years old to love her and take care of her. I know she was my Angel when I was going through my strokes. Father please guide me with my family. I am thinking about my health and place boundaries bc it's too much of the controlling and yelling anger. I just want my family happy even if it means I'm loving from afar.i don't know what will happen with my family I just don't feel welcomed.