Dear Heavenly Father
Thank you for continued prayers for my boyfriend John and I. Today as I staying with my middle sister for the time being it's hard. She is always angry at me also when she dog sits for my sister or goes and does something for them she always comes back angry and yells at me. I have asked her to stop yelling at me I take care of my own things as well as pay her rent and I do my best to help her with her house. But when I say let's work together she plans one weekend then she says she too tired. I understand as she suffers from depression plus she had a concussion so being tired or fatigued is very common and can be awful at times. Since I suffered 2 strokes in 2015 lost my speech cognitive and memory it's hard but I always do my best to wake up with a grateful heart. I want my sister to find peace and happiness in her life. I expressed to her to do what makes her happy and to stop doing for others and do for you. I said you don't need to marry if you don't want to. If you date find someone you enjoy being with one that loves you not someone that golfs so my brother in law can have someone to be with. I want her to find someone if that's what her heart desires that will live her for her help her and enjoy life with not because he does this and that or he plays golf. John is not what my family wants but that's ok he loves me has a good heart and understands me bc he had to be his dad's caregiver when he was young in highschool and I had to do the same for my late mom when I was 9 no one in my family understands how it was like because no one was there and that's ok. Father please forgive me for all my sins..please guide Helen to peace and happiness in life. She's smart successful in work and has her own home. She means we'll but I can not allow her andy family as most of not all then to yell at me for everything. Yes it's how they function including my father whose 82 he's been like that all our lives but bc I've been chronically ill since 18 and haven't finished school...yet and the youngest they all yell at me and I voice that I don't not want to be yelled at it's not healthy and I don't deserve it. It why I keep my distance from most of my family. I want Helen to be at peace love herself and seek happiness. I understand it can only come from within. Father we can't do life without you. Thank you for always being a guiding light in my life loving me with your undying grace. Thank you for you will continue to do in my life and those I love. I will continue to pray everyday keep faith keep hope alive and have you lead me in my life.