Dear Heavenly Father
Im needing some prayers and guidance. While I'm waiting for approval on disability to continue my stroke recovery I am staying with my middle sister Helen. I am really trying to help her as she is trying to help me. I know she suffers from depression, I also know she had a concussion from a car accident few years ago. I also know we are not as close as she is with my eldest sister. I have asked her what I can do to help. If I do anything and take initiative to clean and so on she yells at me. She told me not to do anything and she yells at me. She says I don't pay enough rent I ask her how much do you want she says that's not what I need. I am so frustrated. I just started online schooling to finish my undergraduate degree now since my strokes it's not as easy takes me longer to do something. I have Dr appointments, I don't drive and just take transportation. Honestly Father, I asked her not to yell at me. I have asked her let's work on th backyard pull all dead plants but I asked a few times I don't ask and keep bugging her because she will still yell at me. I would take initiative but I still get yelled at. Father, please forgive me for all my sins. Father please guide me with my middle sister Helen. In all honesty I just feel like my family hates me my father yells my eldest. Everything seems to be my fault. I just can't anymore I place a boundary and that's fine she gets mad bc I'm doing everything I can I have asked her today to write a list and specific instructions. I have no problem taking initiative but just seems like if I do she gets mad if I don't do anything she is still angry. It's not good for my health. I'm ok at this point my family loves in their toxic way but it's not fair to me either. They can hate me. I love them once I get word on disability I will be able to make plans with John and be back with him. Father please guide me let me know what you think I should be doing.
I will continue to pray lean on you Father with your undying love and grace. I will continue to be hopeful and keep faith. Thank you for always being a guiding light in my life. I love you and thank you for what you will continue to do. In Jesus' name. Amen.