Dear Heavenly Father,
I'm such a mess full of emotions and all over the place. Hearing the breaking news from my boyfriend John Kemp whose been fighting Stage 4 Stomach Cancer since January and the advanced treatments after chemo and surgeries not working. He told me he is still fighting he feels defeated he told me he feels like he's dying. I asked him to let go of his families stresses as they need to deal with their own issues as he needs to focus on his health. He has a full blooded brother that is blind he supports financially. I have offered to help his brother since his brother lives in CA and I'm literally 15 minutes away while he is in TX though currently he is in UK Scotland being treated for the advanced treatments since chemo has not worked. Father, please forgive me for all my sins. Please place your healing hands on John and rid of all the cancer cells. I'm down on my knees trusting you keeping faith and praying endlessly for a miracle to have John's health restored. Father, also I keep asking John for us to be together so I can help, support and love on him like crazy. I did kind of annoy him today and backed off bc he felt stressed. But I want to help him. I also asked him to let go of his family stresses so he can relax and focus on his health. Father, I'm praying he allows me to help and support him and love on him. It's what I've been asking to do for him since his diagnosis in January I respected it bc he was staying with his Dr friend and now that he's not. I truly feel he needs to be loved on and supported. I'm still trying to process everything. I had a talk with one of my close friends and her uncle that was in Vietnam war is fighting cancer and they feel like it was time serving also I talked with a military wife she says a Dr in military who served for 20 +0 years died of cancer and many in family that were deployed. John has worked govt directly supporting military on both UK and US mostly US and has been deployed to many different places including Afghanistan. I've also read about how many veterans end up developing cancers. Father I'm being honest I trust in you and will continue to but my anxiety it's so hard to keep calm. I continue to have faith and pray daily and be hopeful. We need your help we can't do this without your love and guidance. We love you, thank you for loving and guiding John and I. We thank you for your continued guidance and love we trust in you. In Jesus' name. Amen.